September 6, 2014
“The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to son-ship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” Romans 8:15
“Because you are his sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, “Abba, Father.” Galatians 4:6
Daddy memories are some of the most tender thoughts and memories I have. I had a great dad. He was brilliant, light and breezy, and yet hard as nails. He worked hard as an engineer providing for his family of wife and four girls. He was a ‘good’ man as men go. Never killed anyone, wasn’t keen on getting drunk, and believed in eating healthy. He was a bit of an enigma. His roots were from back woods east Texas and yet he operated in the upper business life of professionals. He was Daddy.
He died at age 54 as the project-managing engineer over the largest natural gas refinery in the world – it is still the largest natural gas refinery in the world. He was an extraordinary man. He left my mom well off and safe of worries financially. But he left.
He was good at leaving. He was such an overwhelming figure that until these later years, I never realized how absent he really was. He left due to his job, but unfortunately, he left in other ways as well. He left my mom in ways that still hurt.
I remember coming home one day after his death, driving down the long spiral driveway to my parent’s home and my mother outside sweeping the fine East Texas dust/sand away from the drainage grids that held back the leaves from the water well. She was so angry that he was gone, had left, had truly ‘abandoned’ her and escaped from life – leaving her behind, once again.
He was gone this time forever.
Daddy – a great figure in my life. But he failed us in so many ways.
And as I roll through this thought I return to the powerful remembrance. ABBA.
Never-failing, ever-present, all-knowing, all-powerful, all-gracious, forever-loving ABBA.
Abba - Daddy in heaven, and yet present with me.
This remembrance is sometimes hard to retrieve because of the experience I knew with my own Daddy.
However, this Father/Daddy so loves He never removes Himself. His love brings us what we need and also often what we want. But in His wisdom He gives in abundance for our good. I never need worry about tomorrow’s food, clothing, shelter. And He is already going before me to prepare ways that I can and will be successful for Him. For HIS glory.
He doesn’t want me to fail, or to be hindered. It is a poor reflection on His goodness. So, I am thankful that I had an extraordinary Daddy in so many ways. But none more than because He prepared me to be able to see the Daddy in Heaven as a Daddy that desires to give me good gifts and to share life with me. He is better than my earthly daddy who loved but failed.
He is Almighty Daddy, loving little-tiny-just-me.
Our precious Jesus cried out to a Daddy that can choose to do the impossible. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. He can do the IMPOSSIBLE. And He adopted us. Made us HIS own.
In surrendering to Him, He is able to do all things through me. And as I learn how to walk into His Daddy arms I know that He will bring all about for Good. May I be a Jesus Follower in my relationship to my Heavenly Daddy. Not what I will, but what You will.
Because He IS the I AM, i am,
Your mutating missionary
With HoneyB and ebenezer