Do you find this to be as true as I?
God tends to put us in two situations where timing is concerned: 1. Wait 2. Immediately.
I have been in a waiting stage for over a year. Sensing that God was doing something that I had not expected, I have been waiting. Albeit, I have not been patient in the waiting. I have cried, questioned, been frustrated, asked WHY? HOW? WHAT? repeatedly. But I have not received but tiny glimpses I was on the right track.
Things were happening more to me than my moving into any decisions. Yes, I had to make daily decisions, that is not what I am talking about. Things, big things have been happening in my world - and trust me I have not been an influence, these things have influenced me :/
- God impressing I am not to be in ministry alone - January 2014.
- My daughter having an unexpected premature delivery 4 1/2 months early. Our newest miracle was born into the world - January 2014.
- Knee surgery was postponed in October 2013 due to pneumonia and not able to be performed until end of February 2014
- Financial questions beginning in March 2014.
- Rejection from possibility of ministry in an area I thought God was leading me into - end of June 2014.
- Reassessment of end goals in present ministry due to God confirming I am not to be alone in ministry - end of June 2014.
Now, in this moment I am in flash-flood mode. There is an immediacy that He has placed in my life and I find myself overcome by all that must be done in a short period of time.
I simply am incapable of doing it all and I fall often in a heap and say: WoW God! You have been in whisper mode for this and now you are Blowing the Trumpets! I desire to run, but seem to fall and skin my knee on all that you have for me to do.
As I find myself in this situation I hearken back to the reality that He is in control of it all and desires for me to rest in Him as He alone can do the impossible. Through Him I see that these tasks and needs can be met. But only through Him. Only by leaning into the God who SEES, may I take the next steps.
Jesus too found himself in moments of immediacy.
The Gospel of Mark reminds me of Jesus' beginnings:
Mark chapter one reminds me of these immediacies:
- And immediately coming up out of the water, He saw the heavens opening, and the Spirit like a dove descending upon Him; and a voice came out of the heavens: "Thou are My Beloved Son, in You I am well-pleased."
- Immediately the Spirit impelled Him to go out into the wilderness.
- And they immediately left the nets and followed Him
- And they went into Capernaum; and immediately on the Sabbath He entered the synagogue and began to teach
- And immediately the news about Him went out everywhere into all the surrounding district of Galilee
- And immediately after they had come out of the synagogue, they came into the house of Simon and Andrew, with James and John.
- Now Simon's mother-in-law was lying sick with a fever; and immediately they spoke to Him about her.
- And moved with compassion, He stretched out His hand and touched him, and said to him, "I am willing; be cleansed." And immediately the leprosy left him and he was cleansed.
- And He sternly warned him and immediately sent him away...
And yet, Jesus does not hurry, He does not fret, He seeks time to get alone with His Father and He takes one step at a time.
Waiting is for a moment in God's time. IMMEDIATELY is light-speed! And I am so thankful that He expects me only to seek and find Him in the light-speed - find Him, hold His hand, and take the next step.
So, here we go :-)
Because He IS the I AM, i am
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