Monday, February 17, 2014

Who will separate us from the love of Christ?

Romans 8:35-39

New American Standard Bible (NASB)
"35 Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 Just as it is written,
For Your sake we are being put to death all day long;
We were considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
37 But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

I leave in a few minutes to drive to the local University Hospital. I sign up for a surgery that will take place in one week. My fears are real and are huge in this moment of trial. And yet when I take them to the Lord in quiet - when I cease the struggle and collect myself long enough to place my mind on Him (where it always belongs) I find His PEACE.

I find that these last few months have been set up for me to land right into His arms. He has "hemmed me in" as they say.

And in the hemming, I have been attacked: mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally.

But this I know:

1. Nothing can separate me from Him, nor Him from me.
2. And In HIM the conquering comes - why? Because I am loved by the God who IS. The great and powerful and amazing God. He who shelters me and comforts me and reaches down and handpicks me to be His daughter. This broken, sometimes overly fearful woman - weak and weary of the ways of the world.

I stand on His promises to me - not on mine to Him. I can only try - He succeeds. I attempt, He completes. I lose, He wins. I am lost, He is the finder of the lost, the keeper of the weak, the ruler of the wild.

And I fall once again into His arms, sit in His lap, and snuggle into His broadness. He alone. He alone can and will and does.

Because He IS the I AM,
i am
your mutating missionary
with HoneyB and ebenezer

Monday, February 10, 2014

God sees and nothing surprises Him

February 10, 2014
Returned to Germany a few days ago.
Where was I?
left suddenly in January
For Whom?
my daughter got in touch with me after I had entered a Silent Retreat to seek God in silence.

It was an emergency. She requested help. She had begun having problems with the pregnancy of my 3rd grandchild. She needed help to try and stay down long enough to get Baby to stay in womb and then deliver Baby here healthy and at least a little further along than 23 weeks gestation...

I came out of silence. I rushed around preparing for an overseas travel within a few days. I flew out four days after she requested help. I arrived a few hours after impatient Grandbaby #3 decided he didn't want to wait.

God has taught me many lessons in this last month. He has spoken to me through circumstances before, and I love when He guides moment by moment. Sometimes in the deepest of silence, sometimes in the mad rush of activity.

I am reminded of His own walk on this earth. Sometimes He set out for desert-silent-solitude and sometimes He joined the party. Sometimes He walked and taught, sometimes He kicked and screamed. But He never removed Himself from the Father. He heard from the Father every moment of every day. He listened and stayed in tune to what the Father wanted Him to do.

I want to be like that. Either in a planned silent retreat that is interrupted because of emergency needs of others, or in the exhaustion of jet-lag from an extended trip.  I want to hear HIM, be in HIM, and live in HIM. As Jesus did and does.

I love that He speaks through situations, through action, as well as silence. He is such an exciting and wonder filled God.  And He has lead me into some newness this last month.

His ways are not our ways. He is showing me that I am in His plan, not my own. But ohhhh what a glorious plan to be in.

BabyR is alive and after two surgeries doing better every day. We rejoice in the Great God who IS! He has shown mercy on us.

His showers of blessing abound.

your mutating missionary
with HoneyB and ebenezer