Friday, June 29, 2012

Thank you all for your prayers.

I wanted to update you all on my own tiny understanding of what is happening to only one family involved in this tragedy of Colorado Wild Fires.

A&E are safe.

There was a moment of real concern from me when I read that E. was going to sleep on an air mattress in their Chiropractor Office.

 Not the part about the air mattress, the office, the info that all was packed and ready to go in case of having to leave... But the part that said she was extremely tired and they were both going to just stay there and sleep... And then didn’t answer their brother’s phone calls.

I told myself, “remember the lines are down, remember the cell phone towers are overcrowded, remember this and remember that.”

But to be honest - and I am trying to learn how to do that not just with others but with myself - I wasn’t trusting God. I am thankful that God doesn’t turn His back on us when we are human.

 Instead, He calls us gently back to remembrances, to having words of truth spoken from saints that live along side of us, to giving us wonderful slices of joy in the midst of trauma, to loving family members in His -this God-Family called Christianity – speaking words, sending smiles, prayers lifted up.

I am falling down in honest gratitude for His love.

And I am thankful that I know after the initial shock we feel upon hearing about one more tragedy (be it cancer, accident, natural disaster or death) we can completely cry out in honesty to the God that holds all that in His timeline.

We can cry out in honest abandon. Father God, Holy of Holies I will give honor and glory to You as You orchestrate the lives of those I love. As You orchestrate my own circumstances, ups/downs, and ins/outs.

 I chose to trust You.

So somewhere just between hearing that she had chosen to fall asleep with raging fires around her and getting the call that she was safe, I stepped out and handed it back to the God who had never released it from His loving hand.

 I am weak, but He is strong.

 mutating missionary and ebenezer

“For the eyes of the LORD move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His. ” 2 Chronicles 16:9

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

My daughter and son-in-law are in Colorado Springs. Their practice is there as well...
enough said...

a praying mama
your mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Encouraged to ponder my temptation to make the temporal permanent.

I see:
  • a Milchkaffee bedecked with its wonderful chocolate heart.
  • a man working on his computer across from me
  • a man that settled into the free seat next to me - of course asking first if the seat was free.
  • the servers busy making sure all are served with kindness and promptness
  • my Ebenezer lying beside me - head half under the table and legs stretched sideways
I hear:
  • German
  • Alemannisch
  • French
  • Turkish
  • Farsi
  • Hungarian
  • American English (different than English)
  • plates clashing
  • English songs streaming over the air waves
  • Greetings of Hallo zusammen and Tschuess zusammen...
I read:
  • Anonymous
  • Daniel study
  • The Bible
  • My Utmost for His Highest
  • Die Hoffnung fuer Alle
  • Die Losung
I smell:
  •  lunch being cooked - only one because here in this cafe - only one cooked lunch is offered
  • lavender from the garden outside
  • fresh rain from the open doors and windows allowing the difference between inside and outside to integrate for the wonderful present
I taste:
  • Brot
  • Butter
  • Honig
  • Milchkaffee
  • Schinken
  • Gurke
  • Ei
I touch:
  • the German friends hands as they come by and greet Ebenezer and me
  • the German friends cheek as we exchange the cultural kiss - right/left...
  • the French friends cheek as we exchange the cultural kiss - right/left/right
  • the American Hug full and filled to the brim with camaraderie (birds of a feather always find each other)  
I think:
Living in Germany on the border of France and Switzerland, eating regularly at the cafe that sits off of the Autobahn I hear all sorts of different languages and see all sorts of different cultures.  I wait anxiously for my Residential Visa to be approved ... again! Every 2 years!

Citizenship? My senses belie reality.
I am simply a passerby in this world of images.
My reality lies ahead.
My reality lies with Him.
My citizenship rests with the one who IS.
I am a daughter of the One true Triune God!

And I must rest daily in the citizenship that He gives me. I don't belong here.
Do you belong in the place you reside?

Your mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Saturday, June 16, 2012

reality / cyberspace / reality / cyberspace /// reality wins

it is 9:34 here in Germany
what am I thinkin'?
ebenezer needs a walk
i need the vineyard beauty
the grapes are popping now
a friend is weeping in her grief
i go and hug her
hug her with my presence
hug her with my words
pointing to the One
go and have a milchkaffee
while she serves/works
LORD - give her courage

Friday, June 15, 2012

"This is My Son whom I love, with him I am well-pleased. Listen to Him!" Matthew 17:5

Christ child grows



In a broken land

A tortured land


the child grows

to Year




A citizen?

A citizen of a foreign land - living - breathing - among us


How did Christ live here when His home was in heaven?

How do you live here when your home is in heaven?

How do I live here when my home is not just another country, but another world?

I pray that I learn to live like the Christ-child...

"In unseen places over underestimated years, Jesus had been making unrecorded, un-applauded choices that had prepared Him for everything to come. And Father God who values the seen and unseen alike -- was very, very pleased." - Alicia Britt Chole

May this time be preparation for tomorrow and the unknown that is to come.
May Father God be well-pleased with my days.

your mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Friday, June 1, 2012

The man who does not read has no advantage over the man who cannot read.” ― Mark Twain

"The man who does not read has no advantage over the man who cannot read.”
Mark Twain

 I have always loved this quote. It spurred me into arduous reading early on. I read because I see an advantage to learning. Can I remember all that I have learned - no? But, it leaves its imprint. And I am thankful that I have learned how to be an evaluative reader. I do not take all in and believe it as truth, but I desire to read with discernment.

I feel sorry for those who are fearful of reading, bored after a few pages, or even refusing to read at all.

As previously stated I am reading a book right now entitled Anonymous. by Alicia Britt Chole.
Her contention about how Jesus became flesh and 'grew' is wonderfully penned. I found these words  to be interesting:

"Esteeming God's Word as even more than a treasured Bible but as the initiator and preserver of our very lives will grant us the motivation necessary to reposition our resistant feelings behind God's pre-existent truth. Disciplining our emotions and appetites is strenuous. But refusing (or simply ignoring) the life-sustaining, preexisting power of God's Word is spiritual self-sabotage." Alicia Brit Chole

I found this paragraph pointing to a similar reality as the one Mark Twain espouses.

To have the word of God in our homes, on our desks, even in our hands on Sunday mornings and NOT open it, read it, memorize it to be hidden in our hearts, is just the same as not having it. As being spiritually malnourished. As being ill-equipped.  As being weak.

How can we believe we will fight the encroaching enemy if we have not read our Bibles? How can we believe we will even know who our enemy is if we have not read our Bibles?

We so often want to run, to exercise, to eat healthy. We are so motivated to do these things for our bodies. To make them strong. Where is our motivation for the eternal?

Yes, we can see the magnitude of God in nature. Yes, we learn a lot from reading others' writings on their experiences, understandings, revelations from the word of God and from their walk with God.

However, our own reading and our own experience with God through His revealing truths to us through His word - there lies the power, the strength, the understanding, and the wherewithal to survive in this world that is being overtaken by its Babylonian mindset.

We are called to be IN the world but NOT OF the world.

The only way I have assurance of being able to do that is by reading and meditating on the written Word of God.

your mutating missionary
and ebenezer