Thursday, January 20, 2011

missing family

Written on January 20, 2011

I am in the USA, but I haven't seen my kids yet. I am saying goodbye to my 9th day in this country. The sun has gone to sleep and soon I will too.

I miss my kids. It is hard when you are half-way around the world, but to be sooo close and yet so far away. I have reasons for being here and not there. They are valid reasons. But they are also not the funnest reasons... they are hard reasons. There are good reasons because I am staying with people I love and that love me. AND it is just the most sensible thing to do. I mean, why would I travel through the northern east coast and head for Texas only to come back here again in a few months. That just doesn't make any sense. Bad logistics. But I miss my kids. What I think has really hit me even harder since I spoke to my daughter a few days ago. Even when I get into Texas, I won't see my daughter. She is in Colorado. She lives in Colorado.

So, I am writing. I am writing and writing and writing. And I am studying German. I am writing and I am studying German. What an interesting day. I miss my kids.

The pies you see on this post were made by my daughter. I taught her my mother secrets that day. She did a super job! The mountains you see are the Rocky Mountains. I love these mountains and this is where my daughter lives. I will see my boys and my daughters-in-love in about....

I wrote this several days ago - couldn't keep my eyes open any longer - went to sleep and didn't return to it - now I have decided to post it. I love my kids.

I see my sons and daughters-in-love at the end of this month. I hope to see my daughter soon after that - sooooo today is a 2 post day ;-)

words to remember

"Beware of anything that competes with loyalty to Christ. The greatest competitor of devotion to Jesus is service for Him. It is easier to serve than to be drunk to the dregs. The one aim of the call of God is the satisfaction of God, not a call to do something for Him. We are not sent to battle for God, but to be sued by God in His battlings. Are we being more devoted to service than to Jesus Christ?" Oswald Chambers


"When God gives a vision and darkness follows, wait. God will make you in accordance with the vision He has given if you will wait His time. Never try and help God fulfill His word. Abraham went through thirteen years of silence, but in those years all self-sufficiency was destroyed; there was no possibility left of relying on common-sense ways. Those years of silence were a time of discipline, not of displeasure. Never pump up joy and confidence, but stay upon God. Have I any confidence in the flesh? Or have I got beyond all confidence in myself and in men and women of God; in books and prayers and ecstasies; and is my confidence placed now in God Himself, not in His blessings? "I am the Almighty God" - ElShaddai, the Father Mother God. The one thing for which we are all being disciplined is to know that God is real. As soon as God becomes real, other people become shadows. Nothing that other saints do or say can ever perturb the one who is built on God." Oswald Chambers

Andrew Peterson - Dancing In The Mine Fields

Sunday, January 16, 2011


I am a combination of two cultures. Deep East Texas and German Mennonite - Kansas. I have come to realize that the cultural differences in my family alone created wonderful nuances in my childhood. Some were good and some were bad... all were wonderfully handed me by my Creator.

To go with that thought - I have re-entered the United States culture. I love this culture. It is my own. But, in the last few years I have lived in another culture. The German culture. And in reality not just the German culture, but the Baden-Württemberg German culture. It is a special culture all its own. In our little area we have Roman bath excavation sites, churches deemed Muenster worthy, the Black Forest, Rhein River, French borders allowing us to venture over for a lunch in France, or driving down for an English movie in Switzerland (only 10 to 30 minutes drive away). We can watch our wonderful baseball players, or go for a quick bowling game up north a bit, good grief my little apartment building is about 200 years old and had brass bricks at the entry way to remind the passers by of the Jews that lived in the house killed in Auschwitz...
The list goes on. What is lacking? What is different?

Why do you think it might be a hard place for me to live? Is it because of culture? Is it because of missing family and my own culture? And why do you think I would be chomping at the bit to go back? Mixing cultures.

Maybe - God prepared me for it by placing me in the family He placed me in.

God makes no mistakes, is always working, never sleeps, and is for me and not against me.


I serve Him gladly here in the States for a while; it will be interesting to see how this culture effects me during this time. At least I know there is one thing that never changes - that culture cannot penetrate - that remains for eternity. I am His child, a child of the King. That dear friend is something that surpasses all cultures and causes me to rest in this place where I lay my head.

mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

United States

Just arrived in the USA for awhile. Beginning in Baltimore, heading to Texas in March, looking forward to where God leads and what he does as I enter into this year of furlough. Germany's laws force me to go home for a year after five years of living in Germany. Brought two suitcases with the majority of German study books... laughing the entire time as I am hauling these heavy suckers everywhere.

God is always working. He never sleeps. I am so excited about what He has been working on in Germany and what he will continue to work on as I am here for this stay, both here and Germany. Looking forward to SKYPE times :-)

We had our first prayer and praise service in our little Gemeinde last Wednesday evening. It was such a precious time and such a precious gift. Several people gathered in my living room and we worshiped this God who IS.

May you be blessed in this new year. I know He has already blessed me in the last few days in amazing ways.

Because He IS the I AM, i am
your mutating missionary