Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Saturday, September 11, 2010

shreds being shread

No pictures today ---

The last few days have been, hummmm, how shall I say this? Interesting.

When I moved here I gave up much (not written in order of importance):
  • cat
  • home
  • car
  • accumulated stuff
  • piano
  • job I loved
  • career
  • feeling of accomplishment
  • friends
  • church family
  • my siblings-mom
  • and of course regular visitings with children

When one enters the mission field, one must count the cost - right?

I did and I packed 4 big suitcases and left. I had no idea how long I would really be gone and didn't have a clue what Germany even looked like. I had never been here.

But for some reason there was a shred, just shred of something that I held on to. And this shred tied me to the states. In the last few weeks that shred has been sheared.

Not a bad thing. Just a realization that I didn't even realize it was there. I am in awe of God as He removes all that we place as more important than He Himself!

So, after four and a half years here I know that He is still molding me. I am still mutating.

A life-long process. I am thankful that He is patient.

Your Mutating Missionary

& Ebenezer

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Speaking from our Divine Center

I've been wondering lately on how best to live my life where my mouth is concerned. Have you ever wondered that? I mean... how do I encourage?... how do I build bridges where hurts have occurred? ...how do I help when I really don't know how to?... when do I speak?... when do I keep silent?

I want to be a person that others can know: her yes is a yes and her no is a no.

But sometimes I just don't know how to help. I've been re-reading a book entitled Celebration of Discipline by Richard Foster. It is one of those reads that I try with all my might to read every year. It is not on how to be disciplined... it is on the Spiritual Disciplines and how to enter into them more on a daily basis. zB. : Prayer, Solitude, Simplicity, Meditation, etc.

Last evening I was aware of how much I must learn about speaking. I actually went to God in prayer and asked Him to give me some direction. This morning during my reading time I came up on this in his chapter on Simplicity:
"Plain speech is difficult because we so seldom live out of the divine Center, so seldom respond only to heavenly promptings. Often fear of what others may think or a hundred other motives determine our "yes" or "no" rather than obedience to divine urgings. Then if a more attractive opportunity arises we quickly reverse our decision. But if our speech come out of obedience to the divine Center, we will find no reason to turn our "yes" into "no" and our "no" into "yes." We will be living in simplicity of speech because our words will have only one Source." Celebration of Discipline by Richard Foster

This has been such an important thought during my day today. Are my words spoken after sending a quick prayer up to my Lord? So many people have the initials WWJD plastered from car bumpers to necklaces to keychains... But do we actually ask Him. What would you say? What would you do? This is something I have been thinking about today. And you? What do you think?

May we lock our mouths as we walk down unknown paths. May we pray that He open our mouths as we walk down paths that He levels and He attends.

mutating missionary
& ebenezer
ps i have a problem with computer right now - please know i will be back on with more frequent postings... ASAP!