Sunday, May 30, 2010

Remembering A. W. Tozer





I have a cat.

Well, maybe I should say that I had a cat.

Well, maybe I should say that I had a cat and when I came to Germany I couldn't bring my cat; I asked my son and his wife to take care of my cat until I could bring him over with me;

Well, maybe I should say that I had a cat and when I came to Germany I couldn't bring my cat; I asked my son and his wife to take care of my cat until I could bring him over with me; I tried 4 times to get him here and they all failed; He was the neatest cat ever! I don't know why God never allowed him to come and live with me here; but he loved Grant and Amanda too.

Well, maybe I should say that I had a cat and when I came to Germany I couldn't bring my cat; I asked my son and his wife to take care of my cat until I could bring him over with me; I tried 4 times to get him here and they all failed; He was the neatest cat ever! I don't know why God never allowed him to come and live with me here; but he loved Grant and Amanda too. A.W.Tozer, my cat, died yesterday.

This cat was the first of many animals in my life that I chose that chose me too. Do you understand that? I have had animals all of my life. Some were supposed to be mine - but they found more joy with another member of my family. Some were supposed to be theirs - but they found more joy with me. A. W. Tozer was the first animal that I fell in love with that loved me back. He would sit on the large arm of my red prayer chair and curl into this little ball while I read, wrote or prayed. Anytime a book lay on my bed or ottoman, he would try to open it and lay on it. He loved books. He would sit on my headboard and try to catch the ceiling fan that never was turned off in my bedroom at 5309 Crawford Ct. house. He would follow me around. He was fast as lightening and so dad-gum smart. He opened doors, cabinets, and traveled everywhere with me. He was the first cat that I had a box for and we would go to Starbucks and he would sit in my lap while I drank a coffee and read. He never left my lap when we were sitting out and about. We traveled to Colorado for a jazz festival. We went on walks, he went with me on a leash. He met me at the door and when I wasn't home he would sit on the red prayer chair and wait for me. He was a love of a cat.

I thought about bringing him home with me when I came back from USA this time, but my daughter-in-love admitted she and my son would miss him. So I left him there. They loved AW Tozer and they cared for him in such a wonderful way. They had already seen him through a tough sickness and while I was home I saw the love and care that they demonstrated to AW. He slept in their room, on their prayer chair, and when they were home and snuggled into bed... he usually was right in the middle of the foot of that bed... purring.!!! My son would come home and they would play chase through the house and A. W. Tozer loved living with these two loving and giving people.

A dog attacked him and the puncture wounds were too drastic to heal. He passed into a world I only imagine.

Do I believe there will be animals in heaven. I don't know but I believe so. Do I believe there will be animals in the new world! YES! And A. W. Tozer - I believe will be there for me. Because he was a being that God gave me to experience a tiny little bit of heaven right here on earth. And I will miss him.

If you don't believe that animals go to heaven. If you find my belief offensive - don't comment. It makes no difference to me what you believe about this topic. It is not a salvation issue and anything that is not a salvation issue - I really don't have a desire to debate, be worried about, or spend time pondering. I believe that the love I had for my A. W. Tozer is a love that God gave me and He will handle whether I will see that little guy or not. I will trust Him with that - but no person can determine that. So - don't waste your energy.

Ebenezer lies on his bed before me. Ebenezer is another animal I love and he loves me. God gave me this animal to protect me, give me joy, allow me to be concerned for something on a daily basis other than myself, and that reminds me: responsibility has rewards, relationship can be worth all the inconvenience, and life is just wonderfully fun with an God-created being that we can be in dominion over... and all that that means. Are we good care-takers of what God has given us to care for?

Goodbye my dear one - see you when I get there.

Mutating Missionary
&Ebenezer