Wednesday, March 31, 2010

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Computer challenged: that's me :-)

why?

This morning as I was once again asking God, "Why are we going down this road, God?" I was reminded how I don't really feel comfortable asking God "why?".

Then I was reminded: David sought for understanding constantly in his psalms and God said that David was a man after God's own heart.
I tend to associate questioning God with Job... Remember Job??? The guy that was really a good guy but Satan was allowed to attack him. The purpose being, a hope that Job would deny God. It didn't work. God knew better.
Job didn't turn away from God, but he did question Him. Job's questions were tinted, I believe, with the ever pleading "WHY ME, GOD?" You know the kind. "What have I done to deserve this?" I wonder if that is why God came back with "WHERE WERE YOU when I laid the foundations of the earth?" Hummm... Not a really good idea to question God.
But in Proverbs 4 we read:
"Hear, O sons, the instruction of a father, and give attention that you may gain understanding. For I give
you sound teaching; do not abandon my instruction. When I was a son to my father, tender and the only
son in the sight of my mother, then he taught me and said to me, "Let your heart hold fast my words; keep my commandments and live; acquire wisdom! Acquire understanding! Do not forget, nor turn away from the words of my mouth."
"Do not forsake her, and she will guard you; love her, and she will watch over you."
"The beginning of wisdom is: Acquire wisdom; and with all your acquiring, get understanding." "Prize her, and she will exalt you; she will honor you if you embrace her. She will place on your head a garland of grace; she will present you with a crown of beauty."
Proverbs 4:1-9
This brings me to wondering why I am so afraid to ask God, "Why?" I am not asking because I am questioning GOD! I am asking because I want to acquire understanding. I don't question what God is doing. I know that He is doing exactly what He is because He has a plan, I am in the plan, I am part of the plan, I am not the main actress, nor the bit part - I am the only one that can play this role that He has laid out for my life. I am important in that way, but other than that --- not so much! But, He delights in my asking, "Why?" "Why are You doing it this way? Is there something you want me to learn, to see, to change, to experience with YOU???"
Because of this I think I will continue to ask God, "Why?" and enjoy His teaching me through these days that aren't so clear in the moment. In these days that we wait for Him to return.
And I end with the last part of Chapter 4 of Proverbs:
"My son, give attention to my words, incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them depart from your
sight, keep them in the midst of your heart. For they are life to those who find them, and health to all their whole body. Watch over your heart with all diligence, for from it flow the springs of life. Put away from
you a deceitful mouth and put devious lips far from you. Let your eyes look directly ahead, and let your gaze be fixed straight in front of you. Watch the path of your feet, and all your ways will be established.
Do not turn to the right nor to the left; Turn your foot from evil."=
Once again asking God to let me experience Him in my "Why?" 'schritt vor schritt (step by step)
Your mutating missionary
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