Saturday, February 21, 2009

snow days ... are they over?????

the last few weeks have been filled with snow in my little world.
I enjoy snow just as much as the next guy, but there comes a time for all good things to end and sometimes one is ready for this :-)

I have enjoyed watching from inside. Not so much during the 10:00 pm nightly walk the dog scenario! :-)

Ebenezer has enjoyed playing with my stuffed lab dog that I bought before he came into my life. The stuffed animal is Sprachlos (i.e. Speechless)
At present Ebenezer is the same size... i'm sure that won't last long. Ebenezer's affection for Sprachlos has been so funny and a delight to watch. He carries him from room to room in his mouth. And then suddenly will just plop down beside him and catnap. It has been a light in these dark days.
and then... today I got another belly laugh.
I read the ending of an e-mail from a friend of mine in the USA. She is a wonderful wife and mother and an Aggie (need I say more). All of the words in her closing are great. But, her last sentence just gave me such a belly laugh and today with the blue skies actually causing some of the snow to fall off of the roofs --- I just thought I would share. Please forgive me in advance - if you are offended. I couldn't help but laugh and think - If only I could get out of bed like that!!!!!! what a goal!!! hahaha!!!!
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
Make sure your mark in life is too good to be erased.
Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, Satan shudders and says, "Oh, crap! She's awake!"

your mutating missionary
& ebenezer
as I re-read this before sending it out I realize... I really am language learning again - this is a terrrrrrible post! But 'bear' with me ;-=)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

building relationships

dreaming of sunny days with no snow!
"Communion with God is the one need of the soul beyond all other needs; prayer is the beginning of that communion."George Macdonald

I read recently (can't remember exactly which book it was in so apologies to origin) talking about God is self-gratification and talking to God (z.b. prayer) is building relationship.

Wonder which one He prefers?
mutating missionary
& Ebenezer

Tuesday, February 10, 2009


I have been contemplating these words for the last few months. God invites us into His rest. Why? and How?

I know that we are given clear instruction to enter into the seventh day of rest. He really wasn't that hidden about that. He does it, tells us to do it, over and over again!

Hey YOU!!! You that I created!!!! REST on the seventh day! Got it? It will do you good!

Why? Because it is good for us.
But, then Jesus says, "come and I will give you rest." I don't think He was referring to only the seventh day. God wants us to rest against him like a weaned child rests against His mother. I'm not thinking that happens only on the seventh day.
How????? Could it be in relationship?
What creates an environment of rest?
People can sleep and still awaken unrested. Therefore, sleep, although a huge impactor into the body of rest, does not garuantee rest.

I've known one woman in my life that operated in a total attitude of rest. When I met Catherine, she was in her late 70's. She had reared 4 boys on her own with little or no income. Her lawyer husband had died when the boys were young and she worked for a church daycare/school in Dallas - earning minimum wage. She lived in a house that was about the size of a postage stamp, overun as so many of the homes from this generation with stuff. (you know you just might need that milk carton someday) :-)

Catherine's favorite words were Total Trust. She was the woman that taught me that God is GOOD. Not some of the time, not when it looks like it, not when it feels like it, not when I am getting my way. He IS the very essence of goodness. All that is and was and will be in Him is wrapped in goodness. Evil has been let loose on this earth - but He has conquered that evil. It is accomplished, is being accomplished and will continue to be accomplished. The very mystery of the God we serve.

When Catherine entered a room one knew that she had been in the presence of God, that she walked in the presence of God, that she loved in the presence of God. Was Catherine perfect. Absolutely NOT! In fact, I am sure that her family although very loved and incredibly enjoyed would be quite ready to tell you the realities of her frailties. I knew some of them and loved watching her chide herself when she caught herself indulging in a selfish moment.

Total Trust.
That is a huge pill to swallow. This Total Trust cannot happen in a vacuum. It happens in a relationship. It happens as we allow God to work in and through us in our relationships that He brings across our path.

Can I trust Him to know what He is doing? When a loved one misunderstands my motives, can I trust that He is there? Can I enter into the faith of a child and know that He is right there for me to lean my head against? Can I totally trust Good?
Totally Trust GOOD? Because God is the very definition of Good - can I trust Good?

Good in my pain? Good in my hurt? Good in my questions? Good in my walk?

As I lean more and more on the God of the universe - I believe He is teaching me how to trust Him. He has everything in order. He is for me and not against me. He is my avenger, my redeemer, my lover, my friend, MY GOD! And I want Him. I want Him to lean against. He is the only One worthy of Total Trust. All other relationships are simply a facsimile of this grander and more complete goodness.
The beauty? When we have this Goodness, this Total Trust, this God to lean against like a weaned child leans against his mother. Well, these relationships that are facsimiles are much more restful.

Entering into the dance of life with the lover of my soul.

May you find Him there in your darkness and your unrest.

mutating missionary
& ebenezer