Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Right Where I Am

I've been back in Germany for one week.

It has been a soul searching week. I have revisited much of my life, slept, prayed, and asked God for wisdom and guidance in the days to come.

Pondering the road that God has brought me through, I revisited some old poems I wrote to Him during a really hard time in my life. This particular writing I would like to share.
Holding On

I can handle...the dark

I can handle...the dawn alone here in my bed

I can leaving

I can handle...our children’s cries in the night

I can handle...bills coming due
a door with no knobs
a blown radiator
weeds in the lawn

Not because I am strong...

Just because You said I could...

You are the dawn...

You are the light
penetrating the dark of my world...

Your hand I hold in my lonely bed.

robyn rochelle eubanks
February 8, 1989

I think it is interesting how one must really be healed before one can share the deepest hurts of one's heart. I pray that He uses whatever hurts have been healed for His glory in this country I live in.
I think it is also interesting that His hand is still the hand I hold in my lonely bed. But, I guess I can honestly say I might still be alone, yet it is not so lonely anymore. Except sometimes... and then I cry out again. And as always He is there to meet me - right where I am.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

and the two shall become one

Genesis 2: 18-25
Then the Lord God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone; I will make him a helper suitable for him."

And out of the ground the Lord God formed every beast of the field and every bird of the sky, and brought them to the man to see what he would call them; and whatever the man called a living creature, that was its name.

And the man gave names to all the cattle, and to the birds of the sky, and to every beast of the field, but for Adam there was not found a helper suitable for him.

So the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon the man, and he slept; then He took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh at that place.

And the Lord God fashioned into a woman the rib which He had taken from the man, and brought her to the man.

And the man said,

"This is now bone of my bones, and flesh of my flesh;

She shall be called Woman,

Because she was taken out of Man."

For this cause a man shall leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave to his wife; and they shall become one flesh. And the man and his wife were both naked and were not ashamed."

May God be glorified in the union of my son and his wife. May they leave and cleave well. May they not be ashamed in their nakedness - emotional, physical, or spiritual.

Your mutating missionary