Sunday, April 22, 2007


Freiburg, Germany

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

I leave tomorrow for the USA.

My oldest son gets married in two weeks.

I'm going back to a place I've never been before.

I hope to reconnect with many old friends and spend time with family.

But, I will miss my little home here in Schwarzwald...

Zurich, Switzerland

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

A really good recipe - a.k.a. Mentoring

It is fun to teach a woman how to bake cookies that has never baked them before.

It is beyond words to befriend and mentor a woman that has never done a Bible Study before.

Friday, April 13, 2007

I have more - I want more

I have more...

more questions than I have answers.

more love than I have hate.

more interests than I have time to pursue them.

more friends that speak other languages.

more members in my family.

more understanding of letting go.

more recipes to try.

more experiences to share.

more tears to be shed and laughter to be had.

What is most exciting about this list of 'more' - I have more love for God than I had yesterday and I know that my love for Him is growing as He takes me down roads I never expected. He allows tests to come my way. The tests are harder than they used to be - not that they are harder to pass - they are harder to spot. They are tests of the heart. Each time I enter into one, I hold on tight and beg for Him to protect me from myself!

I might have more questions - but it might be that I desire to spend the time asking them...
Spending time asking God questions - as opposed to reading and writing as much.

I really like God. I really love Him. But I don't want to just like/love God. I want to fear Him. I want to learn how to fear Him. I want to grab hold of the gravity of GOD!!!!!!

I mean come on now! HE IS GOD!

your mutating missionary

Thursday, April 12, 2007

I'm thinking

There is much roaming through my head...
things like:

"Death hath no more dominion over that He liveth, He liveth unto God. Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God." Romans 6:9-11

Saturday, April 7, 2007


Spring in Germany - the sites are popping!
Easter is my favorite celebration!!!!!!

I've lived the last few years without my children on Thanksgiving, and on Christmas. Divorce is a dreadfully hard place to live for children - children want to be with both parents on the holidays. As my children entered more and more into adulthood, it became really hard for them to make that choice (With dad or with mom this year? Why do we have to choose?) So, I took the stress out of the mix. I sent them to their Father's.

But, Easter? Easter has always been a holiday that we have celebrated together.

Until I moved to Germany.

This is only my second year to live without them on Easter. God knew that it would be ever so hard for me - so He allowed my eldest son to marry in May. I go back to the USA in May, see my kids, touch base with as many people as possible, and come back to Germany in one month.

I am thankful to be able to see my children close to Easter this year.

Last year, in a serendipity God Gift, I spent Easter service with my kids. Three of the four of them were there together. I listened to them sing praise songs, I heard their voices lifting to the sky - praising our Lord. I was blessed with beautiful English music. You might ask...MM - what are you smokin'? Read on:

Going through my first Easter service in the church here in my home town, I was down. It was packed and cold! Easter being one of the three most attended Sundays in the state church here in Germany, it was such a different group of people that I didn't even recognize the church body. One of the reasons, there were people sitting in the pews!!!!

Seven hours after leaving that service I called my firefighting son. I knew the others would be in church and thought maybe, just maybe he would be working and I could talk to him. But, no... he was in church!!!! Instead of hanging up, however, he took his phone and put it on speaker phone. I heard English praise music and froze with the phone to my ear. After the first song, my son whispered, "Happy Easter, Mom."

I listened to the praise music, I listened to the sermon. He left it on for the entire sermon. I listened and I cried!!!! I was so blessed to have had time with my children. Time with my children across the vast ocean on Easter Sunday!

And this year, spring has come and I am sitting in my flat anticipating my favorite Sunday of the year.

This year, I look forward to the service - I will understand some of the words, I will understand all of the praise music, I will go to the church that I love and I will meet with several people that I have become friendly with. I will come home by myself, or I will go to the Schwarzwald und wander, or I will come home and be silent and write. But I will not grieve as I grieved last year. Spring is a new beginning and this year He has blessed me with many new beginnings. I am a blessed woman.

By the way, my children have kept this tradition up. Sometimes they are just overwhelmed with the praise music in their churches - so they will just call and let me listen to it.

And my birthday was on a Sunday this year, my daughter called me and wished me a happy birthday - and then the entire congregation sang happy birthday to me!!! She held up the phone and the words seeped across the waves and into my ears - and I cried and cried at my daughter's kindness.

My children are always amazing me. Yes, the redemptive resurrected Jesus lives in us.

We are a family of renewal!

May God renew you and yours this blessed year.
your mutating missionary
My daughter holding up the phone.
Everyone singing happy Birthday! What a treasure -
and to think someone was there and got it on film!

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

oooouuuh - stinky

Berlin (taken in the subway system)

No matter how much you clean it up, trash is still trash.

I live in an incredibly clean country.

Granted this is not necessarily all of Europe. However Germany - Germany is clean.

People here wash their trash. We must divide all of our trash into categories: paper, cartons, re-cycle packaging, glass, and bio. I remember days when I could just dump trash in the garbage, separate the paper and the plastic, and feel ecologically proficient! And I could deposit any really stinky stuff down the garbage disposal. Ahhhh es ist weg! (Ahhh it is outta' here!)

No, we must separate it all. And believe me there is a pretty hefty fine if it is not done correctly. But, I am finding that even when trash is cleaned up - it still stinks. Walking around in the closest large town on trash day, the oder wafts across your nostrils - especially during the hot months!

The spiritual correlations are innumerable ...

Aber, (but) I must admit I really would rather live in a clean environment instead of a filthy one - I'm certainly thankful that God cleans me up for eternity! Cause without Him... well, without Him, I still stink!

My Trash: cleaned, and organized daily!

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Present Time/Future Time Gegenwart/Zukünftigezeit

Revives the Soul
Makes wise the simple
Gives joy to the heart
Gives light to the eyes
Endures forever
More precious than pure gold
Sweeter than honey
Warns YOU when you are in harm's way!

Want some?

I know I do...

Ruminating on these benefits sends me into His arms in an interesting way this morning.

My Jewish friend is reading an English bible for the first time. He is seeking. Now, granted he might not read the New Testament (yet, that is my prayer) - but he is seeking. I am excited for him. He said something to me this last weekend. We were celebrating the birthday of a young woman I am mentoring. We were sitting on the side of a hill, watching a baseball game.
He said something that got me to thinking.

"It is all well and good that you believe that you got this whole Grace thing, that you don't have to worry about eating 'filthy pig' and eat it freely. I think that is fine for you. But even if I were to become one of those 'Messainic Jews' I wouldn't do it. I would observe the rules - they are written for a reason."

So, what do you think?

"The law of the Lord is perfect,
reviving the soul.
The statues of the Lord are trustworthy,
making wise the simple.
The precepts of the Lord are right,
giving joy to the heart.
The commands of the Lord are radiant,
giving light to the eyes.
The fear of the Lord is pure
enduring forever.
The ordinances of the Lord are sure
and altogether righteous.
They are more precious than gold,
than much pure gold;
they are sweeter than honey,
than honey from the comb.
By them is your servant warned;
in keeping them there is great reward."
Psalm 19:7-11

I know what God has shown me. Just wondering what your thoughts are...
I absolutely love His great REWARD!

your mutating missionary