window reflections

Free to be me? 

Really?

I believe that my purpose is to glorify God forever 

and amazingly enough when

glorifying Him 

I will find freedom to be me. 

The me that I can be completely.

The freedom that doesn't apologize for my quirkiness - but does apologize for my wrongful behaviors. Deep apologies - heartfelt apologies - complete apologies... Apologies that come with a desire to change and not enter into those wrongful behaviors again.

I want to be like a window.

I desire to be transparent to those around me. I desire to drop the brick walls and the distances.

Could I ever completely do this? Not without the wonderment in the reality that even in the midst of my failures the God Who IS made me to be a reflection of Himself - He wants to reflect Himself through my life. He wants to. Could I give Him permission to do this? What holds me back from allowing it? It is a moment by moment decision - will I reflect Him back into His own glory?

These windows make me happy.

They are like the eyes of those that I love - they share only what they feel safe in sharing.

Father - help me to reflect your Glory back to YOU! Let the reflections of my heart be transparent as you clean the window of my very being.

Remind me that I enjoy the lines, the reflections, the sights, the sounds, the pleasure, the sun, the raindrops, the snow, the flowers that burst, the smiles, the wings that windows afford me to observe.

Why do I love windows?

I mean really?

What do they represent to me?

I take many pictures of windows, of doors, of gates. 

Windows represent my desire to be transparent

Doors represent my thought-need to protect my heart

Gates represent my boundaries. 

Boundaries, I have learned over time, need to open and close with Wisdom-hands

Thank you God for transparency
for possibilities
for striping me of all and giving a voice to share -
Your freedom is available to the open.

your mutating missionary
and ebenezer