Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Dwell in the Land and Cultivate Faithfulness

Gratitude about dwelling:

1. when you dwell you know where things are
2. when you dwell you have balance and rhythm
3. when you dwell you sing a song of settled
4. when you dwell you have peace from within
5. when you dwell you don't have to wander
6. when you dwell you can rest

Gratitude about faithfulness:

1. when one is faithful ... hummmmm interesting

"The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with His love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Zeph 3:17

"The divine assurance thundering through the ages is also a divine invitation:
"I am with you -- will you be with Me?"
This dynamic is the absolute unifying center of the Bible. Every story in the Bible, no matter its twists and turns, wheher the human characters are trustworthy or untrustworthy, whether the story is sad or happy, is built on this clarion call to relationship, "I am with you - will you be with Me?"  Richard Foster

This has me gripped into stillness.

In pondering the questions of love and loving my neighbor. In pondering how can I do this 'loving' better? I come up on this quote and it stops me from moving forward.  I have a wonder at the God who IS. I am in awe of Him. He has showed up so many times in my life - I am often reminded of the Israelites in the desert. Wandering and being stopped by the cloud until they were to wander again.  Well right now I am stopped.

I believe that it is impossible to love without knowing who it is you love. I know that the more I know Him the more I fall in love with Him.  I don't want to know the Bible - I want to know the Triune God, the 3 in 1 God, the Bible reveals. The relational God that said:

" Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness"Genesis 1:26

The God that wanted relationship with Us. The God that came down to Us. Immanuel - God with Us.

He asks me to enter into a divine invitation.  I have no idea what that will look like. Will I show up?

Will you?

Because HE IS the I AM, i am
your mutating missionary
with Ebenezer

Monday, January 23, 2012


ausgeglichen = balanced

Thursday, January 19, 2012

its 2:18 am

This past week found me driving half way across the USA. I left DFW on Thursday of last week. I arrived in Baltimore last evening. This morning my dear friend gifted me with a massage. I haven't been right since.  I have been all mushy... I'm pretty mushy anyway, but this mushy is a deep in the body mushy.  I slept through lunch, through dinner, and through the evening. I got up and listened to a few songs on Pandora Radio, answered a couple of e-mails and settled in for sleep early.  Sleep came. Wondrous sleep.  But now it is time to continue sleeping and I, admittedly, am tired - very tired.

But I have songs on my mind - and life on my mind - and the bible I love in the truck outside - unable to get it. I would wake up the house. So, I go to the internet and find Bible verses - still awake. I read some blogs - still awake. I read some journals I've written on the computer. I start the new blog that I have wanted to start. I tick and I tock... but I sleep not.

This doesn't happen to me often. I must admit - sleep comes to me easily. I have often wondered at my blessing in that area. But, tonight. Much too much on my mind.  Too many impossibilities I am laying at my Father's feet.

He knows. I know that. But, I must lay them down.  I think it is time to climb up on my boxcar train and meet my Big Burly Bloke. Here I am Jesus - hold me.

because HE IS, i am
mutating - mutating - mutating missionary
& ebenezer
I wonder what God has in store for us.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Quotes - sometimes it cannot be said any better:

Life with God by Richard Foster:

"The legalism of the Pharisees is an expression of bibliolatry -- a rigid adherence to the letter of the Scriptures, devoid of the presence of the Spirit, which makes a virtual idol of the Scriptures. Our God is not the Bible, but its living Author: 

"You search the scriptures because you think that in them you have eternal life; and it is they that testify on my behalf," said Jesus. "Yet you refuse to come to me to have life" (John 5:30-40)."

Oh Father, bring me into the place where LIFE is imparted from the reading of the word.

your mutating missionary
& ebenezer

Saturday, January 7, 2012

window reflections

Free to be me? 
I believe that my purpose is to glorify God forever 
and amazingly enough when
glorifying Him 
I will find freedom to be me. 
The me that I can be completely.
The freedom that doesn't apologize for my quirkiness - but does apologize for my wrongful behaviors. Deep apologies - heartfelt apologies - complete apologies... Apologies that come with a desire to change and not enter into those wrongful behaviors again.
I want to be like a window.
I desire to be transparent to those around me. I desire to drop the brick walls and the distances.
Could I ever completely do this? Not without the wonderment in the reality that even in the midst of my failures the God Who IS made me to be a reflection of Himself - He wants to reflect Himself through my life. He wants to. Could I give Him permission to do this? What holds me back from allowing it? It is a moment by moment decision - will I reflect Him back into His own glory?
These windows make me happy.
They are like the eyes of those that I love - they share only what they feel safe in sharing.
Father - help me to reflect your Glory back to YOU! Let the reflections of my heart be transparent as you clean the window of my very being.
Remind me that I enjoy the lines, the reflections, the sights, the sounds, the pleasure, the sun, the raindrops, the snow, the flowers that burst, the smiles, the wings that windows afford me to observe.
Why do I love windows?
I mean really?
What do they represent to me?
I take many pictures of windows, of doors, of gates. 
Windows represent my desire to be transparent
Doors represent my thought-need to protect my heart
Gates represent my boundaries. 
Boundaries, I have learned over time, need to open and close with Wisdom-hands
Thank you God for transparency
for possibilities
for striping me of all and giving a voice to share -
Your freedom is available to the open.

your mutating missionary
and ebenezer