Friday, December 30, 2011

I travel.
I travel with my job in Europe sometimes.
I travel at least 3 times a year there.
I have been known to travel more.
But this year I am ready to stop traveling and the travel is not at an end.
I leave in about 2 weeks and travel from the middle south to the north east of the huge country we call United States.
I have 2 planned stops. I am not willing to travel the over 24 hours with Ebenezer alone in one shot. I have done that in my life - not now.
So I travel to the sweet southern state of Alabama, stop for a few days. Travel to that lazy town of Charlotte, stop for a rest, and then meander on up to Baltimore, Maryland.
I am blessed to travel and see those that I will see along the way.
But I am not looking forward to the travel.

I long for my own bed. I long for my wonderful luxurious red chair. I long for my tiny fridge and freezer. I long for my balconies. I long for the windows opening to the blue sky. I long for the irritating middle of the night walks in the freezing cold weather when Ebenezer decides he can wait no longer for morning. I long for evenings at Wilhelm Straße 3. I long for mornings waking up for an early morning coffee, journaling, reading, silence, conversation with friends, slower pace and amazingly enough: what I have come to know as home.

I long for this place. I long for this space. I long for this imprinting of the reality that I am being used by Him in fun and amazing ways. I long for the adventure I find in the everyday. I long for this place.

I find so much happiness in a little wohnung (apartment). What more will my future hold?

I enter 2012 with expectation and excitement.
I have been praying about my word for the new year. I walk in silence with God and ask Him to give me the word for the New Year.
I have determined the word for the New Year. Perhaps I will share it later.
But a friend has challenged me to find a picture for the New Year.  I am beginning to think about that and I will let you know if I decide to do it.

your mutating missionary
and ebenezer
here because HE IS here

Sunday, December 25, 2011

It is in the Knowing that Rest Occurs

I cannot explain
the peace that comes when meeting Him in the mornings, often after a night of tears.
I cannot explain
the joy that enters my life when I know that I am following Him, even when the journey brings snares.
I cannot explain
the life that He shares with me in the days of moment by moments.
I cannot explain.

I just know it.
I pray that you enter into this peace,
this joy
and this life
that is in HIM:
Immanuel - God with Us.

written by me - your mutating missionary

Because He IS the I AM, i am
your mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Thankful for:
  1. My kids
  2. My family opening their home / the farm / the tractors / the kitchen / their hearts
  3. Friends
  4. 2% milk
  5. Small quaint coffee shoppes
  6. Phone calls from 011+49 ... 
  7. Speaking
  8. Hearing
  9. Being an observer 
  10. Fruit and Candy stands run by proud American Indian... wow! Apples and Malted milk balls to die for!
  11. Aunt Jen's Pumpkin Pie Cake
  12. Tractor races
  13. Wind in faces
  14. Cold hands
  15. Tears streaming whilst remembering precious history
  16. A Heritage to be Proud of - a similar passion passed down through the ages.
mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Wednesday, December 14, 2011


"If we believe there's more pleasure in something other than God, then our obedience will never rise above required duty, our prayers will never aim higher than using God, and our joy will always leave an emptiness that drives us to further self-centered efforts to find the fullness we demand." Larry Crabb

Friday, December 9, 2011

1 John 4: 4

There are times when one verse calms my spirit. This is one of those times. From government red tape to airline fares to my own inadequacies and technological 'lackings' and even other more personal stuff and stuff and stuff... HE is greater.

Because HE IS the I AM,
i am
a mutating missionary

Sunday, November 27, 2011

2 moravian missionaries mix

This was on one of my missionary co-laborer's blog.  Thank you Brandon and Jenny for your service, your sacrifice, for loving Him in this way. They are not with the same mission organization or in the same part of the world. I have known him since he was a kid. Now he and his wife serve in South America.

It was so powerful I had to share. I take up this cry. Use this mutating missionary for Your Glory, please Jehovah. I enter into the new adventure of more years in a foreign land with You alone as my goal.

May we stay the course. Please pray for all those that leave their homes and families. This is not a game we are playing...We are playing for keeps. The keeping of the Gospel of Jesus - the mighty God, the mystery of the Holy Trinity.

mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Saturday, November 26, 2011

God's nature is Loving... However, without the atonement - forgiveness is impossible. It would go against His character.

Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest
November 20

"Forgiveness is the divine miracle of grace. The cost to God was the Cross of Christ. To forgive sin, while remaining a holy God, this price had to be paid. Never accept a view of the fatherhood of God if it blots out the atonement. The revealed truth of God is that without the atonement He cannot forgive— He would contradict His nature if He did. The only way we can be forgiven is by being brought back to God through the atonement of the Cross. God’s forgiveness is possible only in the supernatural realm.
Compared with the miracle of the forgiveness of sin, the experience of sanctification is small. Sanctification is simply the wonderful expression or evidence of the forgiveness of sins in a human life. But the thing that awakens the deepest fountain of gratitude in a human being is that God has forgiven his sin. Paul never got away from this. Once you realize all that it cost God to forgive you, you will be held as in a vise, constrained by the love of God."

WOW! I do love Oswald Chambers. This is even better in the original version, but I don't have it with me right now.

Think about it. We minimize the Atonement. We don't recognize, without the Atonement there is no forgiveness. We need the spilled blood covering our sins. The spilled blood - the Holiness of Jesus, Son of God - the sacrificial gift of the Holy Trinity. Without His Atonement being given and our decision to receive that gift - forgiveness is a mute point.

The reality that He gave Himself for us. That He loved us so very much that even in our rebellion against Him He made a way for us to live in eternity, holy and complete in Him. That overwhelms me. That creates in me a deep desire to share Him. To share Him with anyone I meet that doesn't know this truth. Because, as loving as God is - He cannot go against His Holy Character and receive any blot of sin within His heaven.

I don't want anyone to miss out on this amazing love, this journey, this holy hope. Being cradled in the loving hands of the Great God of Creation. Being loved in the midst of confusions/joys, ups/downs, ins/outs. Knowing that God is Holy and yet gifts me with Himself. Amazing Grace!

Your mutating missionary
and ebenezer

And so...

Thursday, November 17, 2011

"And they that are wise shall shine as the brightness of the firmament; and they that turn many to righteousness as the stars forever and ever." Daniel 12:3

Seasons of Gratitude -
They come in swoops of color
browns, oranges, yellows, reds
then green, red, white, blue
They come in waves of laughter
in homes
in restaurants
in shops
They come in tender silences
in remembrances
in future hopes
in precious 'aware of the precious moment' moments
They come in cascading tears
in dark corners of loss
in inviting hugs
in beds, bars, beyond

Gratitude for what was, what is, what will be
Gratitude of family, friends, forever
Gratitude toward God and all He wraps us in
the sorrow, the joy
the past, the present
the continual presence of yesterday
the hope of tomorrow
the love of eternity

Seasons of Gratitude

'thank you's are tumbling out of hearts, hands, mouths

my 'thank You' wells within my being
spills out into the wild abandoned wonder of Your Grace

Thank You

May I always remember the

May I always remember in

your mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

a brainstorming exercise:

A few questions brainstormed:

  • What is discipleship?
  • Why is discipleship important?
  • Where is discipleship found in the bible?
  • Do you have examples personally?
  • Current ministries that use discipleship?
  • Were you discipled?
  • How were you discipled?
  • What made an impact on you?
  • Why are you drawn to discipleship? Do you think everyone is?
  • Everyone is called to some form of evangelism - do you see the same in discipleship?
  • How have you developed discipleship ministry?
  • Where would you like to see this go?
  • Is it wrong to ask that of God? ... the whole vision/for ministry/ thing???? Is that totally in God's domain?
  • Who has been impacted by discipleship?
  • How does the Holy Spirit lead in discipleship?
  • Where do you see the need in the church at large?
  • How has the church dropped the ball?
  • What do you see as barriers to discipleship ministries?
  • Can discipleship be formulaic?
  • Each church needs ideas to fit their needs - can a book do this?
  • Can anyone be a discipler?
  • Why is it important for all believers to invest in discipling? Or should it be a calling?
  • How do you disciple?
  • How often do you meet?
  • What materials do you use?
  • How many do you meet with at a time (other than one-on-one)? Do you group them by any variables?
  • What have been the pitfalls of discipling?
  • How do you prepare your disciples to be disciplers to others?
  • What are the greatest benefits you have seen from discipling others?
  • How long must one be discipled?

Asking a regular readers and others a new question:
Would you be interested in hearing about actual ministry via blog?

This blog is a blogging of my thoughts and struggles, prayers, and fears, joys and sorrows. I am considering adding a blog that would be more informative. Just wondering if anyone would read it.

from your mutating missionary
and ebenezer :-)

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Friday, October 14, 2011

Andrew Peterson - The Silence Of God

The Silence of God
I have been here. Some of my friends are here now. I have had to sit in the Silence of God...
mutating missionary
and ebenezer

a song discovered through a dear friend

Check out this song... Let me rediscover YOU

Mutating Missionary
and ebenezer

Sunday, October 9, 2011

a book

 I'm reading a book that has been around for awhile. Life with God by Richard J. Foster.  pg. 7
"The Bible is all about human life "with God."  It is about how God has made this "with" life possible and will bring it to pass. In fact Immanuel, meaning "God is with us," is the title given to the one and only Redeemer because it refers to God's everlasting intent for human life - namely, that we should be in every aspect a dwelling place of God."
 My thoughts are: how, when, why, where? Could I be a hindrance, a help? Who is He and who is He making me into?
 These are some of my questions and some of my questions are being addressed in this book.

Are they being answered? No, not completely. But this writing is giving me an opportunity to look at my questions and discover what others have come to conclusion about how do we invest in the life that is with us.
I'm enjoying the book. I have many more I am reading - but this one I want to finish in the next day or so. I had begun it and lost it at the doctor's office.  I am thrilled I got another one. Love books that I can mark all up.

your mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Sunday, September 18, 2011

And God holds His own...

A list of Gratitude:

  • Beauty
  • Jazz
  • Neighbors
  • Rain
  • Temperatures in the 90's
  • Beauty in the moments
  • Life
  • Hugs
  • Friends
  • Cheap Pedicures
  • Comfy Pillows
  • Quiet moments
  • New places
  • New horizons
  • Kept Promises
  • Questions
  • Simplicity
  • Kindnesses
  • Kansas skies
  • Open roads
  • Ebenezer in full view
  • Seeing old friends
  • Hope
  • the color Blue
  • Rest
  • Small groups of believers sharing life
  • Thoughts of Him
  • Goodness of Him
  • Eyes with a scent of forever
  • A Yellow House - my nest - waiting...
  • Gerber Daises on a window seal
your mutating missionary
and ebenezer

Sunday, August 21, 2011

"Have you been asking God what He is going to do? He will never tell you. God does not tell you what He is going to do; He reveals to you Who He is." Oswald Chambers
"Doubt is not always a sign that a man is wrong; it may be a sign that he is thinking." Oswald Chambers  
Colorado Springs - a good place to ponder these two quotes from Oswald.
Enough to chew on for a while...

added: some fun information...
Saint Frances de Sales is also someone that I have been thinking about lately. He is the patron saint of writers. I've never really wondered about patron saints. I have never been drawn to investigate them. But lately I have been devouring information about the steadfast of our Christian faith and to ignore the saints would be just plain stupid.
Early this morning I woke and opened the really good novel I fell asleep on last night. As I stumbled through the pages last night I was not drawn into the story line at all and then suddenly the hook caught me. I was a goner. After 3 pages this morning, I questioned to myself: I wonder who the patron saint of writer's is. I have heard of the Patron Saint of cooks, of animal lovers, of other various passions are. But I had never heard of a patron saints for writers. Is there one? 

I love google. Yep, there is a patron saint for writers. His name? Saint Frances de Sales. It is said that he did not want to be in ministry. He lived his life out for many years as a soldier. Then he believed that he was called into the priesthood. He ended up not being a very good priest from the perspective of many. He enjoyed life too much. Then he became a missionary to the Protestants during the Reformation. He would slide his sermons underneath the doors of these 'wayward' souls and many returned to Catholicism. He claimed that the Christian life was a romance. That when you were a believer your desire was to write about Him everywhere, so that others might know the fullness of Him, the love of Him, the Joy of Him.

I got a kick out of that. Sounds like that ole' Saint Francis de Sales and I had several things in common. I enjoy finding out what we believers have in common instead of dwelling on what we don't agree on.

Interesting to me. 

So, here's to St. Francis de Sales -

your Mutating Missionary
and Ebenezer

Friday, August 12, 2011

be prepared

Be prepared.
Be prepared.
Be prepared.
I have been thinking about this encouragement lately.

One of my sons is an Eagle Scout. Of course often we think of this two word command when we think of the Scouts. And then in our minds we see some greenish brown shorts and a matching shirt with a kerchief standing before us welding a red-multi-bladed-pocket-knife.

This morning I came up on these words:

"It was Preparation Day (that is, the day before the Sabbath). So as evening approached, Joseph of Arimathea, a prominent member of the Council, who was himself waiting for the kingdom of God, went boldly to Pilate and asked for Jesus' body.
Pilate was surprised to hear that he was already dead. Summoning the centurion, he asked him if Jesus had already died. When he learned from the centurion that it was so, he gave the body to Joseph. So Joseph bought some linen cloth, took down the body, wrapped it in the linen, and placed it in a tomb cut out of rock. Then he rolled a stone against the entrance of the tomb. Mary Magdalene and Mary the mother of Joseph saw where he was laid."  Mark 15: 42-47

Being prepared for the Sabbath day. Being prepared for the Resurrection? Being prepared for His coming again?  It all boils down to being prepared for this day... this moment...this time we have set before us this day.

I am excited about today and the things that I prepare my heart for. I am excited about this day and the things that God has prepared for me. May He be glorified in this moment, in this day, in my preparing my heart for entering into His Rest.

your mutating missionary

and ebenezer