Wednesday, November 29, 2006


I don't know how to say this city (Stadt) name correctly. I say it Berlin, they say it Bare-lean! Just one of the many adjustments in my new language. The bricks laid on the street... The Berlin Wall Line. A normal day in Berlin. Posted by Picasa The constant reminder of this country's separation in history's time line.

A brick line on the ground representing the wall and a memorial of the Holocaust. These are the two things that settled over me from my visit to Berlin...
They linger still.

On a lighter note. I was thrilled with the opportunity to enjoy a dessert with my friend in Berlin. Hey, Missy -- can you guess what this is?

Isn't it beautiful???????
If I had only known that marshmellow fondue with chocolate was included in the meal, I would never have indulged!

Obviously, the Autobahn didn't do me in...

However, it did take more than 7 hours on the way up. Three 'Staus' later - I arrived by 9:30 pm. The trip home was much more enjoyable and schnell (quick)!

My children might read this blog spot - I won't reveal the speed that my trusty Volvo and I were able to slip into on the Autobahn - :0)
Mutating missionary

Friday, November 17, 2006

Bahn Outing

One more week for this semester of language school...

Driving to Berlin leaving in about 2 hours - 7 hour drive.

Why is it that every German I say this to gets a look of total terror on their face?

"You are driving?

Your auto?

On the Bahn?

Oh, MM...
take care!!!!!!!"

I guess you guys should pray!

Back on Sunday to homework and watching as God continues to build relationships with my classmates.

Mutating Missionary
a.k.a. Nascar Mom -- does it really take 7 hours?

Sunday, November 12, 2006

a date to remember

the sermon

mutating missionary
reaching up from beneath basically a 4 year old's language skills and smiling!!!!

Friday, November 10, 2006

Sharing my celebration with you: I had some folks over for my 50th B-day...
Actually it wasn't just for the B-day - we are an international crew. We are all learning German together. "Hey, could someone bring in the chairs, it's time to eat KingRanchGeorgeBushGermanTexasChicken."

Why has it been renamed?
I couldn't get all the ingredients needed to make King Ranch Chicken!

Why was it renamed the above name?

Words in German have a tendency to be long. Why? It is simple. German's define a word by using other words. For instance, a glove is simply taking two words that were already define (hand and shoe) and putting them together to form a new word: handshoe = handschuhe. Think about it, it does make sense. Why come up with a whole new word when you can simply take the idea of a shoe being used on your hand and have a word that everyone understands :-) Of course you also let yourself in for some really LONG words.

The George Bush part? Well, you see he is not well liked in my neck of the woods. Once people find out that I am from USA they give me a hard time about George. When they find out I am from Texas -- it is never ending!!!!! Posted by Picasa

Saturday, November 4, 2006

prevaricate: to depart from or evade the truth.

Alone I stand before God

Obedience. Who is called to be obedient? I am.

We are not our own. He paid the price for us. Obedience is an act of relationship in Him. We are not apart from the body of Christ, and each choice we make has a ripple effect. This is true. But the most important ripple is in relationship to Him.

I am watching a situation right now. I know all the parties involved and love them. I have encouraged, as best I could, to stand firm ‘God hates divorce.’ But the parties have made other decisions. (in Germany it takes an entire year for a divorce to be complete – in Texas only 3 months)

Does that change the Truth? Does that change my own decision making process? Oh my goodness! I pray not! Does it change my love for them? Oh my goodness! I pray not!

God’s ‘rules’ are not RULES! Now, let me repeat that. The standards that are set down in the word of God are set down for a reason. They are to call us to Him. He will not force us to act on them. He will not, He will not, He will not. They are offerings.

“If I obey Jesus Christ, the Redemption of God will rush through me to other lives, because behind the deed of obedience is the Reality of Almighty God.” Oswald Chambers

Jesus walked with His disciples sharing parables. One such parable most believers have heard since they were children, ‘Sowing Seeds’.

If you have forgotten, He shared the mystery first with the multitude. Many were confused by His words. After sharing with the multitude His followers questioned Him more specifically and He shared the insights with them.

Mark 4

13-20 And He said to them, “Do you not understand this parable? And how will you understand all the parables?

“The sower sows the word.
(seed fell beside the road)
“And these are the ones who are beside the road where the word is sown; and when they hear, immediately Satan comes and takes away the word which has been sown in them.
(seed fell on the rocky ground)
“And in a similar way these are the ones on whom seed was sown on the rocky places, who when they hear the word immediately receive it with joy; and they have no firm root in themselves, but are only temporary; then, when affliction or persecution arises because of the word, immediately they fall away.
(seed fell among the thorns)
And others are the ones on whom seed was sown among the thorns; these are the ones who have heard the word, and the worries of the world, and the deceitfulness of riches, and the desires for other things enter in and choke the word and it becomes unfruitful.
(seed fell into the good soil)
“And those are the ones on whom seed was sown on the good soil; and they hear the word and accept it, and bear fruit, thirty, sixty, and a hundredfold.”


On page 57 in my New Testament, there is much ink, there are many tear stains. I have underlined on this page of my Bible the words that are in BOLD in this blog. They are words that I have cried over during midnight meditations.

I had to beg Him to keep me from being unfruitful. I didn’t want the road He was calling me down. I did not and still do not believe in divorce. I made a covenent with God and would not file for a divorce. I didn’t want to be the ex-wife of an unfaithful husband. I didn’t want it – It was THORNY! Worry sometimes overtook me – that has been my grip! I worried and worried and worried. I remember one night in particular (the night that I underlined each word separately "He who has ears, let him hear" - In my journal I wrote, "Oh God please let me listen and hear godly counsel."

Moment by moment he gently pried each of my fingers away from the ‘worries of this world.’ How? In obedience I came and begged Him to. I didn’t want to be unfruitful. That was the word that sent shivers up my spine. Has my grip completely loosened – No! But, I relish in my time with Him, and He is doing it moment by moment still.

“The Lord does not give me rules, He makes His standard very clear, and if my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without any hesitation. If I hesitate, it is because I love someone else in competition with Him, myself. Jesus Christ will not help me to obey Him, I must obey Him; and when I do obey Him, I fulfill my spiritual destiny.” Oswald Chambers

The word muss - must in German is a power word. It means something that rises up within us. It is a word that defines character.

Alone I stand before God. No one else, just me, standing there, holding my choices.

It does not matter at that point what anyone else has decided to do.

It does not matter what anyone else has chosen.

It does not matter what anyone else has said to do and then done differently themselves.

It only matters – did I obey?
Did I trust Him with His standards?

mutating missionary

Thursday, November 2, 2006

The I AM says I Am

What do you seek Jesus for?

I have these words scribbled into the margin of my bible - John 6:24. This is right after the disciples and Jesus had feed the five thousand with five barley loaves and two fish. It is right after Jesus' disciples left without Him in a boat and He decided to take the quicker trip by walking on the water!

24 The next day the multitude that stood on the other side of the sea saw that there was no other small boat there, except one, and that Jesus had not entered with His disciples into the boat, but that his disciples had gone away alone. There came other small boats from Tiberias near to the place where they ate the bread after the Lord had given thanks.

25 When the multitude therefore saw that Jesus was not there, nor His disciples, they themselves got into the small boats, and came to Capernaum, seeking Jesus.
(emphasis mine)

What would they want? What would you want? What would I want?

They had just experienced the food overflowing - do you think they were hungry?

and what is Jesus' reply?
"Truly, truly I say to you, you seek Me, not because you saw signs, but because you ate of the loaves, and were filled.
Do not work for the food which perishes, but for the food which endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man shall give to you, for on Him the Father, even God, has set His seal."

They said therefore to Him, "What shall we do, that we may work the works of God?"

Jesus answered and said to them, "This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He has sent."

It is all about Him folks.

Whatever we want to focus on:
Relationship ...
the list goes on!

Think about the Food: i.e. I AM the BREAD!
He isn't the bread that is given for us to eat. He IS the bread. I thought it interesting when a teacher I was listening to tonight said, "think about the manna in the wilderness" Is the manna in the Old Testament a symbol of Christ to come?

small = humility
white = purity
round = eternity
new every morning = intimate daily relationship


This I know. Jesus does not give us something to eat - HE IS what we eat. He's not a fast food restaurant. Chewing on Him is what meditation is all about! He wants us to sit down at His banquet...

He doesn't give us a door for security - He IS the door. He is the way - He doesn't want to tell us how to get someplace - He wants to take us there! Resting in Him.

He doesn't want to give us a vine to build into, He wants to be the vine we are in. The living breathing Jesus, so intimate He will meet us for coffee.

One other thing:
His manna was showered down new every morning...
don't let it go bad
fill up on Him daily!

He's not something to stick in your pocket and save for tomorrow, or the next day, or the next. I know that when I 'talk' about Him, He waits patiently on top of 'the train' I meet Him on.

He meets me there and I am saddened at the moments that I forged forward without Him.

May we feast on the bread (Him) in the mornings.
May we find the door (Him) securely protecting us from harm during the day.
May we florish in the vine (Him) as we grow through our lives.

If I seek physical well-being I will die.
If I seek HIM I will eat.

If I seek protection from this world, I will be bowled over by the evil that is in it.
If I secure myself in Him as my door of protection, nothing can harm me at my core.

If I seek future and all that holds, I will find myself coming and going and become sick to death of myself.
If I seek Him I will LIVE life worth living.

Because He is the I AM, i am
mutating missionary
He IS the Bread, He IS the Door, He IS the Vine - HE IS THE I AM